His Plan!

First and foremost, give thanks to the one and only God for everything that He has given me.
For the past one year, things hadn't been easy due to some emotional problems, which sometimes only God and I myself knows when tears are shed in the middle of the night.
But through this, I experienced that when God says NO, certainly, He has reserved something BEST for us. Not "good" or "better", but BEST.
Most of the times, our eyes might be blinded with our own will and desire, resulting in disappointment and frustration and even depression, when things don't go as how we want them to be.
However, the moment we surrender ourselves again to our Abba Father, things just changed. It just feel so relieved and peaceful. And as we follow God's will in our life, there shall be showers of blessing.

You may say, why does God put us through all these circumstances which hurts us so much? So much that even our heart aches whenever the memory just came across our mind. I have experienced it, and it certainly makes me stronger each time. And when God says NO, we may be upset and frustrated. "Y U NO LISTEN TO ME???" You may say. Bear in mind, He has reserved something BEST for us. The frustration and sadness is just temporary, when we turn back to God, the happiness is indescribable. And when we look back, seeing the whole picture, the times of frustration and sadness are just shadings that make the picture more lively.

Father, forgive us for our disobedience, forgive us for being so stubborn, forgive us for not following Your will. You know we are weak, we fall down. But you never abandon us, You are always right beside us, waiting for us to call for You. Teach us obedience, at times we might rebel, have mercy on us. May your Holy Spirit speak to us, lead us not away from your path. Lord, give us patience, when You want us to wait. Forgive us for our impatience. Father we just want to thank You, for the blessings and love that you have given to us. Thank You!
In Jesus' name, AMEN!

"And not only so, but let us have joy in our troubles: in the knowledge that trouble gives us the power of waiting. And waiting gives experience; and experience, hope: and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:4-5

Teach me...

Not my will, Lord, but Yours be done.

Down down down down...

It has been 2 months ago since the last time I updated... Haaa... lol
Hmmmmm... Hmmmm... Mmmmhmmm...
The title shows it all. Down...
So down that I don't even have the mood for Maple... lol
So down uh... Yeah...
How I wish I got someone to talk to... But ironically I bet I will be reluctant to say it even though if there were anyone willing to lend his/her ears to me... lol
I don't know why all these happened, although I have prayed for it not to...
But God if that's Your will, may it be done.
I may look strong outside but you know how fragile I am...
Grant me strength and faith to endure all these...
Teach me how to rely solely on You...
It is suffocating, You know how I feel...
It is painful, You know how I feel...
You know everything...

When Will All These End............

This morning, I asked God, "When will all these end?"
I'm not ranting over all the cleanings that I have to do, neither over the tasks that are assigned to me.

Do you know the feeling,
when you are forced to kneel down to a cup of rice with joss sticks and candle on it?
when you are forced to fold the so-called "money"? (I should call it hell currency, as the word 'Hell Bank' is printed exactly on the "money". Don't believe? See it for yourself.)

I have been praying for the salvation of my family.
Since few years ago. Til today. Til this morning.
But still...

This morning, knowing that my parents won't let me out to attend church service for the so-called ancestral worship, I woke up at 5 am.
I switched on my computer, listened to a sermon by Pastor Joseph Prince, which I had downloaded months ago.

Luke 15:11-32

11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons.
12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.
13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living.
14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need.
15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs.
16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death!
18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you.
19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’
20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’
22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet.
23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate.
24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing.
26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on.
27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’
28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him.
29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends.
30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'
31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.
32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

I guess some of you are well-versed with this parable of the prodigal son which was spoken by Jesus.
Explain no more, the verses explain it all.

Luke 15:20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

That's how Abba God love us. Long before we repent, He had planned salvation for us. When we go astray, He waits day and night for our return and repentance. What a great Heavenly Daddy we have!

So after that...
I purposely stood at the back so that no one will see that I didn't actually kneel.

Exodus 20:4-5
"You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below.
You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me,

How cruel God is you may say for those who actually read about God for the very first time. But look what does the next verse say:

Exodus 20:6
but showing love to a thousand [generations] of those who love me and keep my commandments.

I may look like I am kneeling down, but MY HEART WILL NEVER!!! NEVER!!! NEVER!!!
My friend shared with me once, I would like to share it here, in Chinese.

"一个人拜他去世的爸爸, 那么当那个人去世以后, 他孩子就会拜他. 当他的孩子去世以后, 他的孙子就会拜他的孩子. 那么他自己呢? 却被遗忘了. 想想看, 从前几代的祖宗自然也没人去拜, 被遗忘了. 那么, 当没人供食物, 没人烧纸钱给他们, 他们是不是就不用吃? 没钱用了呢?"

Isn't it logic? Probably I have offended some of you,but truth hurts some times.

John 14:6 Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 

There are ghosts everywhere. Probably there is one just beside you. But they are not the souls from dead people. Once human is dead, the soul will be awaiting for the judgement, the second coming of Jesus Christ. They won't be strolling around on earth like what you see in horror movies. So, worship them? Remember Exodus 20:4-5.

These ghosts are Satans. They can transform into any kind to intimidate mankind. But FEAR NOT! If God is in you, YOU SHALL NOT BE SCARED OF THEM. They are just toothless lions, unless you willingly put your head in between their jaws. Yeah, Jesus is the only way, truth and life. Accept Jesus as your personal savior, repent from your sins, admit that you are sinner and you will be SAVED!

So still, when will all these end???
I know God is working. My family is going for the concert on the 7th of February (erhem someone's birthday woooots). I really hope that something will change. I know something will change. Thanks to Captain Wong for the tickets and the invitation. I really don't know how to thank you other than saying thanks and thanks and thanks. God bless you and your family! >.<

One day, I really hope that my family and I will step into the church, sing praises together, worship the one and only God together.
I long for that day. Really, and I know it will happen. That will be one of my birthday wish.
One day.
One day.
I will wait for that day.

and... Oh yeah... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! XD

Endangered Species...

1st 2012 post... No inspiration of what to write recently... Gimme some? xD
1st MUET class with Mdm Maria
1st essay in 2012
and this is what I got... LOL
Just wanna share... I'm not bragging =_='''

"I enjoy reading you writing..."
HAHA that put me on cloud nine.. wooooo... LOL

回眸一望...

Written this in order to pass CE advance... And for President's Badge... =__=|| delayed so long... Finally done... Phew! Thank God! Slow slow read, hehe... 华语不好...

            回眸一望, 2011年已接近尾声, 而2012 年已经是在眼前了. 时间真的好快, 很快, 非常快, 不信的话现在闭上眼睛. 当你张开眼睛的下一刻, 两三秒就这样在你不知觉时溜走了. 很快是不是? 都跟你说了. 今年, 在我活的十八年里, 可以说是最有趣的一年, 也是好多改变的一年, 也是我读完了新约圣经的一年. 过去一年, 很感恩因为上帝一直都很眷顾我. 主的恩典, 大大小小, 何等美好, 从头到脚, 实在是太多太多了. 若真的要数的话, 可以说就像在星空上的星星那样多. 有那样夸张吗? 有! 就是这么多! 多到有时候都以为这一切都是理所当然的, 就像英文的一个词: “taken for granted”. 求上帝赦免我的软弱.

            好! 现在要开始我的故事咯. 我是怎么样把新约圣经读完的啊? 或许对有些人来说, 新约圣经, 这么少, 一个星期就读完咯. 可是, 对于去年的我, 读完这27本书卷, 就像要我把一盘的苦瓜吃下去一样. 那时候, 我对阅读一点兴趣都没有. 一翻开书, 眼皮立刻重了许多. 十分钟内一定睡着, 除非隔天是考试啦. 叫我看漫画? 蜡笔小新的话一定没问题! 新约圣经-- 啊, 很难嘢... 可是我又有什么办法呢? 为了获得男少年军的高级基督教育奖章, 我只好拼了! 于是, 在没有任何选择的情况下, 我告诉自己, 在还没睡前的每一个夜晚, 一定要读完一章! 一天一章, 我就不相信明年读不完! 读就读吧! 反正闷, 也应该不会闷死吧? 呵呵… 我那时候的心情就是这样.

            就在这误打误撞的情况下, 就开始了新约圣经之旅. 不应该说是误打误撞, 这一切都是上帝在动工! 起初, 还真的不适应. 虽然只是一章, 但有时候读着读着, 不知不觉却睡着了. 那时候我是用着我手机的迷你英文圣经, 再加上我读的时候是仰卧着的, 不睡着也很难啊. 但是上帝就是那么的奇妙, 不久习惯了, 不管多累, 还是硬着头皮把一章读完. 老实说, 我也是为了读而读, 至少我交差时我可以问心无愧地说: “我读完了!” 再加上, 我手机的英文圣经用的是比较经典的英语, 所以很多时候, 是它认识我, 我不认识它. 我有一本华语圣经, 但是在睡觉前嘞… 谁那么勤劳啊?

            我听说过: “当一个人寻求上帝的时候, 种种困难就在前头等着他.” 这一点也没错, 毕竟这是一场属灵的战争. 从我读新约圣经的起头就看得出来, 打瞌睡、 随便读读、 心不在焉, 这一切都是撒旦在对我说的悄悄话: “不要读啦、睡觉吧、你很累了、读这么多干什么、没用的、明天再读吧…” 等等拦阻我的借口. 感谢上帝, 久而久之, 我对经典英文的认识也比较多了, 毕竟每天都在读吗, 所以理解能力没那么差了, 就慢慢上手了. 因此, 就越读越有兴趣, 就这样成了习惯. 饥渴慕义的人有福了, 因为他们必得饱足. (马太福音 5:6) 是的, 这是上帝的应许, 只要我们寻求祂的义, 祂必给我们. “你們祈求，就給你們；尋找，就尋見；叩門，就給你們開門。”(马太福音 7:7) 虽然起初可能会受到种种的拦阻, 可是这是必经的, 靠主胜过这一些困难时, 我们的对祂信心就会成长.

            经过这新约圣经之旅, 我觉得我得着最多的就是养成了读圣经的好习惯. 因为在起初被逼之下, 现在我一直都在继续读着旧约圣经, 虽然高级基督教育奖章的条件只是要求读完新约圣经. 上帝就是这么的奇妙. 就这样我对圣经产生了兴趣, 所以今年一直都在寻求, 寻求更多. 也在朋友的邀请下, 也参加了青中学园团契, 还误打误撞地当上了副主席, 一个什么都不懂、笨手笨脚的副主席. 当然, 我相信上帝有祂的旨意. 今年, 真是蒙福又蒙恩的一年啊! 我相信, 明年也会一样很棒! 所以, 少年人, 有时候被逼着做某些事情, 并不是一件坏事. 当然, 我不是说去银行抢劫、街头打抢. 有时候, 苦瓜吃久了, 你会发现苦瓜并没那么苦, 而且还对身体有益呢!

所以, 还在犹豫的少年们, 别想了, 就从今天开始, 打开你布满灰尘(敢说不是? 呵呵)的圣经, 开始你与上帝独一无二的圣经之旅吧! 记得! 饥渴慕义的人有福了, 因为他们必得饱足. 这不是我说的, 是上帝答应的!

P.S. 老实说, 这篇文章也是在被逼写的. 因为, 如果没写分享, 我就拿不到奖章.(嗨……真可怜啊对不对?) 可是! 换个角度来想一想, 如果我没有被逼的话, 那么你们岂不就看不到这篇文章吗? 原来, 一千个字的分享, 就只有这么多. 哈哈! 感谢上帝一直的带领和看顾, 感谢祂派了这么多贵人在我身边, 在我最忧伤时祂依然不离不弃. =]

那些年, 我们一起追的女孩

哈哈! 看不到电影就看小说咯... 嗨... 没关系, 我继续等!
真喜欢这本书, 果然是名不虚传的九把刀... xD
一边看书, 我就一边做了一些语录...

青春期的男生可以在一百个人面前极尽丢脸之能事，还兼洋洋得意——只要其中
没有他喜欢的女孩。

青春期的男生可以因为成绩差劲、上课捣乱、跟墙壁说话，变成某种反其道而行
的英雄——只要他不需要坐在喜欢的女孩的前面。

我是个很热血的人，总是莫名其妙把日子过得很热血。

那意味着，我可得拼到全校前三名才行啊……如果真有那一天，以我超频太甚的
脑力，一定会脑内暴浆，少年中风啊。

这是个关于爱情的故事，却饱满了更多的友情。

“糟糕，我会不会太奸诈了？”我看着月亮。
“不会，你是非常非常的奸诈。”月亮说。
“不客气。”我竖起大拇指。

一切都在我的掌握之中，人生没有意外。

“是这样的，我个人认为呢，要给你最大程度的快乐，与其让快乐指数从零跑到
一百，不如从负一百飙到正一百，这样绝对值是两百整，非常厉害又一辈子忘不了的快乐
吧！”

爱情不是人生的全部，却是我人生的味道。
越是深沉的痛苦，代表我曾经爱得越饱满。
每尝过一次爱情，我都能获得无与伦比的勇气，在跌倒的时候吹拂伤口，然后重
新站起。

每个女孩都是我们人生的烛火，照亮了我们每段时期疯狂追求爱情的动人姿态，
帮助我们这些男孩，一步一步，成为像样的男子汉。

如果我的爱情回忆在化为一份记录性书写时，有任何的意义，那便是希望每个读
着这些故事的男孩女孩，都能从中获得一点点，相爱的勇气。

我所能做的，不过就是继
续当好沈佳仪“朋友”的角色，并遵守两个原则：不逾矩；不刻意讨好。

而幼稚的我对一切状况都很明了，
又明摆着对沈佳仪没有兴趣，只是个见鬼了的好朋友……

实际上，不论输赢，只要订上这个赌约，我就算是大获全胜。
我赢了，我就可以每天在教室里看着沈佳仪站在窗户外，跟我挥挥手。
我输了，我就可以每天站在窗户外对着教室里的沈佳仪，向她挥挥手。

有人说，爱情可以让贩夫走卒变成诗人。

“当你的情敌还真的蛮可怜的。”许博淳说，想了想，又接着道，“不过如果你做
了这么多，却还是失败了的话，啧啧，你就是我看过最惨的人了。”

“等待也是行动的一部分。”

过度期待，才真的会失去所有该得未得的开心。

对于爱情的态度，我的思想是过度成熟的。
但对于因爱情而生的种种行为，我却竭尽所能的幼稚。

在无法用“爱情”的姿态面对沈佳仪时，我选择将我的位置放在沈佳仪的“好朋
友”位置上。

是啊，你开心，我就很开心呢。

湿透，累透。他妈的帅透。 <<<<超喜欢这句!!! ROFLOL

依旧是淋着雨，但心中却因沈佳仪刚刚的笑容出了太阳。

恋爱中，可以花尽种种心机，运用策略打败对手，但做自己是很重要的。
或许，根本是最重要的。

“如果到最后让沈佳仪深深爱上的自己，并不是真正的我，那我所做的一切又有
什么意义呢？”我说，拍拍许博淳的肩膀。

没有人有资格嘲笑另一个人的梦想，不管对方说出梦想的目的为何。

“让这个世界，因为有了我，会有一点点差别。

而我的世界，不过就是你的心。

有一百种方法可以把爱情搞丢，就有一百种方法可以亲近爱情。

没有人可以替你定义你的爱情。
星座专家去死。
答客问专栏作家去死。
所有拼命想告诉你何时该谈恋爱何时不该谈恋爱的关心魔人，去死。

没错，单兵作战是很豪爽，但失败的代价太大，我承受不起。比起豪迈的狂输，
还不如用天罗地网的布局去求胜。

但，就是特别。无法被清楚定义的特别。

杨过有小龙女，我有沈佳仪。杨过有龙女花，我有小耳朵。而杨过有大雕，我有
许博淳。他妈的这不是命运使然是什么！

“If you risk nothing，then you risk anything。”

“人生如果睡得不饱，怎么充实都很虚耶。”

太晚睡还不是在等你念完书，讲完晚安电话再阖眼？我暗道。

恋爱果然是很人性的
东西，不可能全都充满步步为营的计谋，那样太压抑，太不健康了。

超娘的，但一条硬汉愿意很娘的时候，我猜想应该还挺感人的吧？

电话那头，是我从未听过的、期待已久的感动声音。
很简单，却很受用。

You are the apple of my eye。
你是我，最珍贵的人。

突然，我感到很害怕。我极度恐惧，自己不被允许继续喜欢这个女孩。

，“你就耐心等待，我追到你的
那一天吧。请让我，继续喜欢你。”

我真是，太胆小了。我的自信在绝不能输的爱情面前，根本一无是处。

每一段爱情都是人生，而我靠着不断不断回忆的勤劳功夫，将这些遥远的记忆重
新整理，敲打成文字，仿佛在青涩的过往里又活过了一次。

对我来说，告白如果只关心成不成功就太逊了，因为“如果一旦成功，就不会在
有下一次的告白了”。告白当然要成功，所以仅有一次机会。因为仅有一次机会，当然就得
想办法让告白漂漂亮亮，永生难忘。

我开玩笑。一个期待发生的玩笑。

山风吹拂鱼鳞般的金色阳光，引擎声碰碰击打无语的节奏。
我只是静静地骑着车，感觉沈佳仪此时此刻只与我在一起的奇妙滋味，希望沈佳
仪也有“此时此刻”的记忆感，收进名为“柯景腾”的抽屉里。

“我喜欢沈佳仪，也喜欢我自己，所以当然也喜欢喜欢着沈佳仪时候的我自己。”

是啊，喜欢对的人，身上会发光。

“对你很重要的东西，竟然就是伤害自己吗？”

联结的方式有很多种，有的连结是一种陪伴，有的连结是一种互相取暖，有的连
结则是一种淡淡的默契。

放弃很苦，真的很苦。苦到我完全想象不到任何比喻去装载它。

“我也很喜欢，当年喜欢着你的我。”
“那时候的我，简直无时无刻都在发光呢。”

“也许在另一个平行时空，我们是在一起的。”

有人说，一个人的一生是好是坏，端看他咽下最后一口气时的觉悟，仿佛结局就
是一切，过往种种皆不作数似的。

我希望，在沈佳仪的心中，我永远都是最特别的朋友。

游标停在第一行，底下一片空白。
故事有个美好的结局，只需要起个精采的头。
我看着婚礼上的照片，思绪又陷入多年以前。
有一个成绩爆烂又爱吵闹的男孩，被老师托管给一个气质优雅的女孩……
座位前，座位后。
男孩衣服背上开始出现蓝色墨点。
一回头，女孩的笑颜，让男孩魂萦梦系了八年，羁绊了一生。



真的很佩服柯腾... 原来九把刀也有这么热血的青春.
可惜, 结局不是那么的圆满. 嗨, 他说人生没有意外, 我倒觉得刚好相反...
这是我人生中成功读完的第二本华文小说, 借借小说的台词...
当我认真读书的时候, 连我自己都会害怕啊!
在等着我的是另外三本小说, 《月老：异时空追爱记》, 《爱情, 两好三坏》, 《等一个人咖啡》. 都是九把刀的名作!
我要K书啦!!!!!

First Step

I told my mum, "I want to go to church tomorrow morning."
My mum replied, "Huh? I thought last Sunday you went with BB?"

This time, there is a difference. I added, "I want to go. It's on my own will."
Finished that sentence, I shifted my sight to the flashing television, waiting for questions from my mum.
Surprisingly, she didn't ask any further. Thank God! I guess she knew that I want to be a Christian. In fact, I'm already a Christian because I have accepted Christ as my life saviour and handed my life to Him.

Hmm... Before telling her that, I've made the decision while driving home from church after BB parade. No matter what, I must take the first step. I know that it is very important, if I were to remain silent, nothing will be done. I prayed that my mum will let me go tomorrow, and God answered my prayer without fail! Hallelujah!

God please strengthen me, I know that through man nothing can be done, but through You, nothing can't be done. Help me, that I will stand still, for You and not only for this Sunday. Give me courage, that I will say the same thing for next Sunday, and for the Sundays ahead. Thank you Lord, in Jesus' glorious name I pray. Amen!

Struggle...

Something had been playing in my mind recently, again... Ah...
The struggle wasn't easy... Sometimes I think that war in mind is far more cruel than war that involves spilling of blood... You may not agree with me, but if you are shot down in a bullet rain, that's it, it's time to meet God. War in one's mind persists even though you try to forget about it. And your heart aches from time to time, when you are reminded about the particular matter. In the same time, Satan will try to conquer our mind, so that we lose faith in God, so that we leave Him. The fallen angel will and always will influence our mind, especially when there is a war going on in our mind.
Thank God, His words never fail... Few of the bible verses appeared in my heart just now, and it really calms my soul, which was in turmoil few moments ago...
I'm alright for now, but I don't know what will happen next. Satan is powerful, but with God, he is NOTHING.
I know God has His plan... He has His timing... Maybe He just wants me to wait... Maybe just keep waiting... Waiting... While waiting... God please strengthen me... For You know how much I can handle... I know, the time shall come...

Blessed Week...

A week of exam had stretched me to the maximum mentally and physically, tense and fatigue is all what I have for the pass 5 days. So what I did straight after home every day was checking on what's going on in Facebook (release tension haha) and take a 1 or 2-hour nap to reward myself haha.
Thank God for being with me all the time, I would have broken down if I were all alone...
And thanks JD for her Good LuckssSssssSS!... haha lol

Hmmm... Toughest subject? Chemistry? Easiest? Maths T? lol
No matter how the result is, it is done! Ahah!
Joy has kicked away all the tiredness from my body the moment teacher said, "time's up!" for the physics paper... Ohoho... It had been so long since the last time I sat for exam, around 9 months? lol
After the last paper today, I went to Francis' home and wait for the time to pass by. Had fun with "World Of Goo" haha! A superb game indeed! Without realising, it's time to go back to school for ISCF gathering. Ha!
We prayed, for the club, for our depressed and troubled members and others. God bless you all!
An ex-student of GRSS joined us shortly after we started our gathering. He is now a teacher, involving in student recruitment for Taiwan universities. He shared some of the infos with Grace after the gathering. I stood there and listened too. Kepo kepo haha...

The offer really attracted my attention, cheap fee, attractive scholarship offer and most important thing, NO CONTRACT BOND. Whoa... But still, living expenses have to be born by the students. I also just knew that 人间茶坊 Life Cafe's owners are actually fresh graduates from Taiwan universities... And according to him, some of our veteran church leaders are graduates from Taiwan universities too... lol Hmm... Really attractive but... My heart is here... Ahhh... I still got some time... God will show me His way... ><

Something is still playing in my mind recently... Confusion of what should be done... Wait, or don't wait... AHHHHHHHH... How I wish I know what to do...

Still! Give thanks to God for everything! xD

God Places Them In My Life To Show How Great He Is!

Spent my holiday as Admin Coordinator in NTS (NCO Training School) 2011 Kuching.(Admin Coordinator sounds so high class uh? ROFLOL) Had fun, saw many things in different perspectives, including the creativity, courage and even cuteness of a group of teenagers haha! Other than preparing things needed in classes, my team and I could just relax and cracking jokes with the coaches. HAHA!
And I would like to highlight the conversation between me and Albert, which was 1 of my team member. Here is how it sounds:

我: 为什么你选择读 Law 呢?
Albert: 我要改变世界!
我: *嘴巴开大大, 震撼万分地看着他*
Albert: 其实我是想借着当律师进入政治, 了解世界上的法律. 这样才能看能做出什么样的改变.
我: *真的不知道说什么, 深深地被他的话震撼!*
Albert: 哈哈! 那你想读什么呢?
我: 还不知道嘞...
Albert: 那跟我一起读 Law 啊!
我: 我没兴趣耶...
Albert: 不用什么兴趣的啦, 我也是对 Law 没有兴趣啊...
我: *英语说得好 "TOTALLY STUNNED!"*

WHOA!!! I really didn't know what to say! But I could foresee in future, there would be something like YB Albert fighting for people's right and justice, glorifying the name of God! What I could see in Albert is, God has His really great plan for his life! May God guide him in his path towards the changing of the world. This makes me very excited and wanted to be like him, doing everything for God. I know that God will place me somewhere in my career, serving Him.

Haha! The day after NTS ended, I went to another camp, which was the ISCF committee training camp. Had fun too! And met an English girl living in the same house with us, he name is Naomi. Haha! Borrow some words from Kelvin, "FROM ENGLAND LEH!!!" lol
Hmm... The particular person that I would like to mention here is Miss Yong, our ISCF advisor. Although the camp only lasted for two days, but the way she served really touched me. She had been the teacher for the club for 19 years, yet she is still serving diligently. During the camp, she prepared awesome breakfast and dinner for us. Wow, glad that I'm a member of ISCF GRSS xD Haha!
On the last day of the camp when we were going to take our lunch, she scooped the food for everyone. I tried to take over, but she resisted. Here is another dialogue:

我: 怎么好意思让老师盛给我们呢...
Miss Yong: 老师都没有不好意思, 你们就别不好意思了啦!

This reminded me of how Jesus served his disciple, how Jesus washed his disciples' feet.
=] Thanks a lot! May God bless you abundantly! Although next year you will be retiring, but I know God will have something great for you! xD

Thanks Albert! Thanks Miss Yong! Thank you Almighty Heavenly Father!

Amazing Grace...

While sitting down and relaxing my mind during the heavy downpour that day, this particular incident somehow crossed my mind. And it really enlightened me, and reminded me how powerful and great is the Lord.

My aunt came back last year and stayed at my grandpa's house. Everyone was happy and everything was alright until one day.

My grandpa and my aunty were quite stubborn sometimes, so conflict happened between two of them. I couldn't really remember what happened, but all I knew was that they were in critical situation. My grandpa badmouthed my aunty and it made my uncle really unhappy. I don't really feel like mentioning what actually happened, it was just something really awful. And that time everyone was furious, until my aunty was like, "I don't wanna care that old man anymore."

The cold war persisted for a few days. And I was really worrying, because if my aunty really didn't want to care about my grandpa anymore, I couldn't imagine what will happen next. I looked up to God, praying hard that everything will return to normal soon. And for the next few days, nothing happened until one scorching afternoon. I reached home from school. My mum was in the living room, frowning. Something worse had happened. My uncle and aunty couldn't stand it anymore, they wanted to move out instead of staying in my grandpa's house. Hearing this stunning news, my heart turned cold, whispering, "Oh Lord, why aren't you answering my prayer? Why?" My faith started to fade. God wasn't listening to what I have prayed, that was my thought for that very moment. However, I still prayed, and tried to hold still, trying to believe that God will listen to me. My faith was shaken.

The next day, I went to school as other normal teens do. Repeating daily routine in school. Nothing special happened in school that day, just normal. Couldn't wait to go home, just didn't know why. Time passed by briskly, and I got home. With smile on her face, my mum opened the door and said, "It's over!"
"Huh? What?"
"Your grandpa and your aunty, it's over."
"What? It's over?"
"Yeah! Your aunty and your grandpa.  They are okay already."

That was the greatest news I had ever heard. I thankfully prayed, and regretted for losing my faith. I was really touched, for what  He had done for me and my family. From that day onwards, I knew that I don't have to worry  what is in front of me, because FOR SURE He will lead me till the very end. Even in hard times, I will still say, God will walk through it with me.  And I really love this verse, "We live by faith, not by sight.(2 Corinthians 5:7)"

Oh Lord, help us when we fall. Help us when our faith fails. Help us when we lose hope. Help us when we let go of your hands. Help us when temptation awaits. I know You will not forsake us! It is so great to have a friend like in my life, walking side by side no matter how the path ahead will be. Thank You Lord! In Jesus' glorious name we pray, AMEN!

Another Totally Crazy Epic Night With Some Totally Crazy Epic Friends! HAHA

Yesterday night was another great night! xD
Hung out with JD, Ah Leong, Matthew, Angelina and Mark at Basaga(too bad Pyong can't join us). For those who are wondering where it is, here is the map. A nice place to hang out with friends and family, but don't go so frequently, unless your pocket is bottomless.


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 The LOL moment starts when me and JD were on the way to Basaga... ROFLOL!!! Although I had been to the actual place once, you know, I'm a Luchi. (google translate 路痴 from chinese to english then you know why I wrote this =_=)
So, I googled and printed the map to the destination, still we were lost... LOL!!!
We were turning circle around the Central Timur road. We tried alternative route, ended up returning to the same place again. Then...
JD: Ok, let's go home!
LOL!!! Nearly gave up, but we gave it a shot again after calling Mark. ROFLOL
Finally, after being late for 1 hour, we reached the restaurant. Thank God we reached in one piece LOL! What a fine dining place! xD


Matthew, Mark and Angelina was sitting there. LOL!!! Preparing to shoot the latecomers. Haha! And not long after we reached, Leong reached too aha! At least we were not the latest one! So we settled down and ordered some food. What a joke, got lost for 1 hour LOL!


Yeah, we chit chat joke talk. The atmosphere was really different with Mark and Matthew... haha! Two funny guys! xD

Highlights:
Leong: A girl asked his father, "Can I kick the durian?" Then the father replied, "Kick la!" Then she really kicked, and hurt her toes.
JD: NGAITI!
Matthew: Why do you say it out?
I guess Leong still catch no ball... Hahaha!


Talking about food, Leong, Matt and me ordered chicken chop (吃鸡 according to forget-who-it-was =_=) while the girls and Mark ordered Fish n' Chips.

Mouth-watering!
The food was just nice, just that the chicken chop was a bit charred. The rest was okay. xD
The surrounding was nice. Dimly lit with candle light, sound of  flowing water. Everything is just great! Oh... Not forgetting about the lizard! LOL! Ahaha! Indeed epic xD


Indeed a night filled with endless laughters! Thanks guys for making it!

Yes I will continue walking on!

Whoa, it has been long time since the last time I wrote my own post.
Had been down for these few days. Ahah! Why? Some personal problems had been playing in my mind all day, taking things too hard. You know haha... Okay maybe you don't... LOL nvm

Well today when I was going to take a shower, a voice is telling me, "Go on! God wants to make miracles for you!" For that very moment, I felt so motivated and touched! And my mood turns one hundred and eighty degree. Overwhelmed with joy and hope, I prayed... Thank you Lord. =)

Lots of time we have been depending on ourselves to do everything, and leaving our Heavenly Father behind. As time passes by, we feel weary and worn out, because what we have done has never been enough. And we will rant and blame anything on our way, why is it so unfair?! Why is this happening to me?! With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26)

Turn and look back, our Father has been waiting for you to call upon Him and return to Him. His hands have reached out for you before you know it. When you feel helpless, take a rest, and ponder, "what have I done? What have I really done? What have I really done for?" And you will be surprised that the answers will be exactly the same as how the questions sound.

So brothers and sisters! Feeling weary? Worn out? Disappointed? Hopeless? Depressed? Forsaken?
Call upon his name. For nothing is impossible with God. (Luke 1:37)
He wants to make miracles happen for you! Continue walking by faith and not by sight! (2 Corinthians 5:7)
Nothing is too hard for God, He knows what is the best for us and has His great plans in everyone of us. (Jeremiah 29:11)

God bless you all and have a nice day!

When He says NO ,

He certainly has something best for you!

Through Him nothing can't be done!

A Date To Remember...

Haha... Had been away for quite a long while from my blog, now I'm back again to write down part of the colourful moments in my life. xD

Thanks Ah Leong and JD HAHA!!! Great time... Hehe... Free frappuccinos!

Hahahahaehehehehahahehehahehahahehehe...

Photo...

Ahhh.. Talking about taking photos... I just don't know why I can't be natural in front of camera. =__=||
And what is worse, my eyes are closed in some of the photos taken by friends... Photo spoiler... zzzzz.... What a great timing uh... Oh God, help me so that I can be natural in front of camera... Help me smile naturally, pose naturally... That's all I wish... xD

Today.. is a great day... HAHA!!!

Okay! Yes! Today is indeed a great day! As usual, my days kicks off with school. Everything happened so fast in school, because of friends probably. But... I think Chemistry is the hardest time today... Oh Miss Tan... I miss your teaching... Not to say that our current Chemistry is boring, but the way she speaks... If I weren't scribbling that time, I bet I will land a shark. And our Maths T teacher really sounds like Miss Lim... LOL!!! And... Madam Patricia... She wasn't as terrible as I imagined... LOL!!! The way she teaches is really great! I think I will have fun learning MUET in her class!

So now is the climax... ROFL...
The thing I worried all these while had come true...
After the school ends, I went to my car and wanted to go home fast.
BUT... I can't start the car... Oh My God...
Tried the second... the third... the fourth... still failed to start. NO SOUND AT ALL!
I opened the car bonnet, thinking that maybe the wire to the battery is loose... Touch here touch there...
Tried again... The car is dead... lol...
So, Wen, Wee and JD went back on their own. I heard Wen and Wee walked home. Really sorry!!!
Then how about me? No choice but to push the car and walk back home... What a day...

You believe me? Of course no! I'm not stupid till that point! Called my father... And he reached after 2 hours... Rushing from 15th mile to green road... Haiz... Sorry papa!
While waiting, I met Bryan. He said he was on duty that time, taking care of the counselling room. Chit chat as usual...
After Bryan finished his lunch, I went out to wait for my father and he went for his duty. I sat at the small hut there... Bored... Took out my Maths T exercise, no calculator, forget it, put into the bag again.
After 2 hours, my father reached. The fuse is somehow malfunctioned, that's why I can't start the car. I really need to learn some mechanic skills. I drove home, with my papa following behind, worrying that the car might broke down again. He went to 15th mile again to resume working after I reached home. Haiz... What to do...

In the evening, my house is flooded...

 LOL! I was making pizza crust and all of a sudden water appeared to be everywhere in the house. After that, I was about to drive to attend the evaluation meeting for the drill camp. And the car died again just after it was out of the garage... Luckily it didn't broke down halfway, or else I will be doomed lol... Phew!

Hahaha! What an interesting day!

I will cherish every moment and every day I got!

It is hard.

This week is probably the toughest time I've encountered in my life.

Mixed feelings and thoughts are playing in my mind.

Dilemma...

Tormenting me mentally.

So much things to be thought of.

Some decisions have to be made,

and some are too late to be mentioned even though I've changed my mind.

I feel lost. I feel sad. I feel happy. I feel... I don't even know what do I feel sometimes.

But I'm glad that God gives me friends, that makes the whole situation a relief, especially the two that are crazy and funny HAHA!!! You know who you are! xD Thank you!!! (You are allowed to be perasan this time. HAHA)

Hmmmmm... Let's just walk and see... This is life... C'est la vie...

God Has a Plan for US.

I will follow what You have planned for me.

Drill Camp...

I'm sure that many BB boys are intimidated when they see the two words "Drill Camp". ME TOO!!! Why??? It is because there will be LOTSA punishments throughout the camp. But not this 1 that I've attended 3 days ago. It was rather fun I can say... xD

I'm involved in the organizing of the drill camp this year, and I'm in-charge of the food and drinking water of the camp. So I was part of the organizer and a camper too. There were challenges during the process of organizing, such as changing of campsite during last minute and etc... But now it is over! YES OVER! XD Thank God that I'm involved in the committee, I've learnt a lot!

The night before the camp I was worrying... Thinking... How to survive for the next 3 days... lol... But God comforted me... =)

So the next morning I went to the campsite first by Lt. Desmond's car, leaving all the boys of my company for the registration later in that morning. Together with me in the car is Corporal Wilfred and Lance Corporal Samuel. Well, I talked to Lt. Desmond on the way to the campsite. He isn't fierce! Just that he has to be strict in camps... xD

So, we reached campsite and did the setting up. After an hour, all the boys reached the campsite. So, the camp kicked off with a short briefing and a simple opening ceremony. Then, the first theory session started. Luckily I revised before going to the camp. So I caught up very fast, to me it is just like a revision. xD Aiseh, hao lian! No la... This is the second time I attended advanced level, so of course not that tough for me la...

Basically, the first 2 days are the same. Class, lunch, class, dinner, class, etc... I liked the food by the way... xD RM3 for 1 great meal is indeed a great deal! There are some highlights during the first 2 days...

-Staff Sergeants were exempted from the rule "marching in the campsite". Besides, we don't have to fall in. (WOOHOO GREATEST NEWS I'VE EVER HEARD IN THE CAMP, THANK YOU CAPTAIN CHIEW!) However, we have to join the fall in during the practical session too...
-We were totally roasted under the sun... But I'm still so white... HAHAHA Imba lol...
-I felt sorry for the boys during the morning exercise for the next 2 days... All got punished... LOL... Sigh... Although I'm involved in punishing them too, but I still feel sorry. Never mind, I hope they will remember what they have done wrong... xD
-Sharing moment at night of the second day. I got compliment from Lt. Desmond, SO HAPPY YOU KNOW! XD Hahhahahha!!

THE LAST DAY... OMG... I'M SO EXCITED... WE WERE GOING TO GO HOME! LOL
We had last practical session followed by rehearsal for the closing ceremony. Everything went well, of course there are some problems too such as time restriction. We managed to take care of that. Thank God! xD We had Guard Of Honour for display and I'm the Parade Commander! xD Cool yeah! We performed what we had learnt these 2 days too! The camp was drawn to an end with a photo taking session. I will surely miss the great moments I had in the camp!

The drill camp had ended, but this is only part 1... There will be a test for what we have learnt those 3 days. I'm going to get the advanced drill badge!!! PRESIDENT AWARD HERE I COME!

Lord had blessed us with good weather these 3 days. AMEN!

Indeed... LAME...

Today, I played with google translate... And I found out a laaaaaaame truth... Click this... =_____=|||

Cool Yeah means "cold ahhhh" in chinese??? LOL!!!

So! Next time, if others use "Cool Yeah!" as a compliment to you, don't be too happy. LOL

冷啊...............................

Really 炸到... =_=