This morning, I asked God, "When will all these end?"
I'm not ranting over all the cleanings that I have to do, neither over the tasks that are assigned to me.
Do you know the feeling,
when you are forced to kneel down to a cup of rice with joss sticks and candle on it?
when you are forced to fold the so-called "money"? (I should call it hell currency, as the word 'Hell Bank' is printed exactly on the "money". Don't believe? See it for yourself.)
I have been praying for the salvation of my family.
Since few years ago. Til today. Til this morning.
But still...
This morning, knowing that my parents won't let me out to attend church service for the so-called ancestral worship, I woke up at 5 am.
I switched on my computer, listened to a sermon by Pastor Joseph Prince, which I had downloaded months ago.
Luke 15:11-32
11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons.
12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.
13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living.
14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need.
15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs.
16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death!
18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you.
19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’
20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’
22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet.
23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate.
24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing.
26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on.
27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’
28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him.
29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends.
30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'
31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.
32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”
I guess some of you are well-versed with this parable of the prodigal son which was spoken by Jesus.
Explain no more, the verses explain it all.
Luke 15:20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long
way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he
ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
That's how Abba God love us. Long before we repent, He had planned salvation for us. When we go astray, He waits day and night for our return and repentance. What a great Heavenly Daddy we have!
So after that...
I purposely stood at the back so that no one will see that I didn't actually kneel.
Exodus 20:4-5
"You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below.
You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your
God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers
to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me,
How cruel God is you may say for those who actually read about God for the very first time. But look what does the next verse say:
Exodus 20:6
but showing love to a thousand [generations] of those who love me and keep my commandments.
I may look like I am kneeling down, but MY HEART WILL NEVER!!! NEVER!!! NEVER!!!
My friend shared with me once, I would like to share it here, in Chinese.
"一个人拜他去世的爸爸, 那么当那个人去世以后, 他孩子就会拜他. 当他的孩子去世以后, 他的孙子就会拜他的孩子. 那么他自己呢? 却被遗忘了. 想想看, 从前几代的祖宗自然也没人去拜, 被遗忘了. 那么, 当没人供食物, 没人烧纸钱给他们, 他们是不是就不用吃? 没钱用了呢?"
Isn't it logic? Probably I have offended some of you,but truth hurts some times.
John 14:6 Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
There are ghosts everywhere. Probably there is one just beside you. But they are not the souls from dead people. Once human is dead, the soul will be awaiting for the judgement, the second coming of Jesus Christ. They won't be strolling around on earth like what you see in horror movies. So, worship them? Remember Exodus 20:4-5.
These ghosts are Satans. They can transform into any kind to intimidate mankind. But FEAR NOT! If God is in you, YOU SHALL NOT BE SCARED OF THEM. They are just toothless lions, unless you willingly put your head in between their jaws. Yeah, Jesus is the only way, truth and life. Accept Jesus as your personal savior, repent from your sins, admit that you are sinner and you will be SAVED!
So still, when will all these end???
I know God is working. My family is going for the concert on the 7th of February (erhem someone's birthday woooots). I really hope that something will change. I know something will change. Thanks to Captain Wong for the tickets and the invitation. I really don't know how to thank you other than saying thanks and thanks and thanks. God bless you and your family! >.<
One day, I really hope that my family and I will step into the church, sing praises together, worship the one and only God together.
I long for that day. Really, and I know it will happen. That will be one of my birthday wish.
One day.
One day.
I will wait for that day.
and... Oh yeah... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! XD
