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那些年, 我们一起追的女孩

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| Wednesday 30 November 2011
哈哈! 看不到电影就看小说咯... 嗨... 没关系, 我继续等!
真喜欢这本书, 果然是名不虚传的九把刀... xD
一边看书, 我就一边做了一些语录...

青春期的男生可以在一百个人面前极尽丢脸之能事,还兼洋洋得意——只要其中
没有他喜欢的女孩。

青春期的男生可以因为成绩差劲、上课捣乱、跟墙壁说话,变成某种反其道而行
的英雄——只要他不需要坐在喜欢的女孩的前面。

我是个很热血的人,总是莫名其妙把日子过得很热血。

那意味着,我可得拼到全校前三名才行啊……如果真有那一天,以我超频太甚的
脑力,一定会脑内暴浆,少年中风啊。

这是个关于爱情的故事,却饱满了更多的友情。

“糟糕,我会不会太奸诈了?”我看着月亮。
“不会,你是非常非常的奸诈。”月亮说。
“不客气。”我竖起大拇指。

一切都在我的掌握之中,人生没有意外。

“是这样的,我个人认为呢,要给你最大程度的快乐,与其让快乐指数从零跑到
一百,不如从负一百飙到正一百,这样绝对值是两百整,非常厉害又一辈子忘不了的快乐
吧!”

爱情不是人生的全部,却是我人生的味道。
越是深沉的痛苦,代表我曾经爱得越饱满。
每尝过一次爱情,我都能获得无与伦比的勇气,在跌倒的时候吹拂伤口,然后重
新站起。

每个女孩都是我们人生的烛火,照亮了我们每段时期疯狂追求爱情的动人姿态,
帮助我们这些男孩,一步一步,成为像样的男子汉。

如果我的爱情回忆在化为一份记录性书写时,有任何的意义,那便是希望每个读
着这些故事的男孩女孩,都能从中获得一点点,相爱的勇气。

我所能做的,不过就是继
续当好沈佳仪“朋友”的角色,并遵守两个原则:不逾矩;不刻意讨好。

而幼稚的我对一切状况都很明了,
又明摆着对沈佳仪没有兴趣,只是个见鬼了的好朋友……

实际上,不论输赢,只要订上这个赌约,我就算是大获全胜。
我赢了,我就可以每天在教室里看着沈佳仪站在窗户外,跟我挥挥手。
我输了,我就可以每天站在窗户外对着教室里的沈佳仪,向她挥挥手。

有人说,爱情可以让贩夫走卒变成诗人。

“当你的情敌还真的蛮可怜的。”许博淳说,想了想,又接着道,“不过如果你做
了这么多,却还是失败了的话,啧啧,你就是我看过最惨的人了。”

“等待也是行动的一部分。”

过度期待,才真的会失去所有该得未得的开心。

对于爱情的态度,我的思想是过度成熟的。
但对于因爱情而生的种种行为,我却竭尽所能的幼稚。

在无法用“爱情”的姿态面对沈佳仪时,我选择将我的位置放在沈佳仪的“好朋
友”位置上。

是啊,你开心,我就很开心呢。

湿透,累透。他妈的帅透。 <<<<超喜欢这句!!! ROFLOL

依旧是淋着雨,但心中却因沈佳仪刚刚的笑容出了太阳。

恋爱中,可以花尽种种心机,运用策略打败对手,但做自己是很重要的。
或许,根本是最重要的。

“如果到最后让沈佳仪深深爱上的自己,并不是真正的我,那我所做的一切又有
什么意义呢?”我说,拍拍许博淳的肩膀。

没有人有资格嘲笑另一个人的梦想,不管对方说出梦想的目的为何。

“让这个世界,因为有了我,会有一点点差别。

而我的世界,不过就是你的心。

有一百种方法可以把爱情搞丢,就有一百种方法可以亲近爱情。

没有人可以替你定义你的爱情。
星座专家去死。
答客问专栏作家去死。
所有拼命想告诉你何时该谈恋爱何时不该谈恋爱的关心魔人,去死。

没错,单兵作战是很豪爽,但失败的代价太大,我承受不起。比起豪迈的狂输,
还不如用天罗地网的布局去求胜。

但,就是特别。无法被清楚定义的特别。

杨过有小龙女,我有沈佳仪。杨过有龙女花,我有小耳朵。而杨过有大雕,我有
许博淳。他妈的这不是命运使然是什么!

“If you risk nothing,then you risk anything。”

“人生如果睡得不饱,怎么充实都很虚耶。”

太晚睡还不是在等你念完书,讲完晚安电话再阖眼?我暗道。

恋爱果然是很人性的
东西,不可能全都充满步步为营的计谋,那样太压抑,太不健康了。

超娘的,但一条硬汉愿意很娘的时候,我猜想应该还挺感人的吧?

电话那头,是我从未听过的、期待已久的感动声音。
很简单,却很受用。

You are the apple of my eye。
你是我,最珍贵的人。

突然,我感到很害怕。我极度恐惧,自己不被允许继续喜欢这个女孩。

,“你就耐心等待,我追到你的
那一天吧。请让我,继续喜欢你。”

我真是,太胆小了。我的自信在绝不能输的爱情面前,根本一无是处。

每一段爱情都是人生,而我靠着不断不断回忆的勤劳功夫,将这些遥远的记忆重
新整理,敲打成文字,仿佛在青涩的过往里又活过了一次。

对我来说,告白如果只关心成不成功就太逊了,因为“如果一旦成功,就不会在
有下一次的告白了”。告白当然要成功,所以仅有一次机会。因为仅有一次机会,当然就得
想办法让告白漂漂亮亮,永生难忘。

我开玩笑。一个期待发生的玩笑。

山风吹拂鱼鳞般的金色阳光,引擎声碰碰击打无语的节奏。
我只是静静地骑着车,感觉沈佳仪此时此刻只与我在一起的奇妙滋味,希望沈佳
仪也有“此时此刻”的记忆感,收进名为“柯景腾”的抽屉里。

“我喜欢沈佳仪,也喜欢我自己,所以当然也喜欢喜欢着沈佳仪时候的我自己。”

是啊,喜欢对的人,身上会发光。

“对你很重要的东西,竟然就是伤害自己吗?”

联结的方式有很多种,有的连结是一种陪伴,有的连结是一种互相取暖,有的连
结则是一种淡淡的默契。

放弃很苦,真的很苦。苦到我完全想象不到任何比喻去装载它。

“我也很喜欢,当年喜欢着你的我。”
“那时候的我,简直无时无刻都在发光呢。”

“也许在另一个平行时空,我们是在一起的。”

有人说,一个人的一生是好是坏,端看他咽下最后一口气时的觉悟,仿佛结局就
是一切,过往种种皆不作数似的。

我希望,在沈佳仪的心中,我永远都是最特别的朋友。

游标停在第一行,底下一片空白。
故事有个美好的结局,只需要起个精采的头。
我看着婚礼上的照片,思绪又陷入多年以前。
有一个成绩爆烂又爱吵闹的男孩,被老师托管给一个气质优雅的女孩……
座位前,座位后。
男孩衣服背上开始出现蓝色墨点。
一回头,女孩的笑颜,让男孩魂萦梦系了八年,羁绊了一生。



真的很佩服柯腾... 原来九把刀也有这么热血的青春.
可惜, 结局不是那么的圆满. 嗨, 他说人生没有意外, 我倒觉得刚好相反...
这是我人生中成功读完的第二本华文小说, 借借小说的台词...
当我认真读书的时候, 连我自己都会害怕啊!
在等着我的是另外三本小说, 《月老:异时空追爱记》, 《爱情, 两好三坏》, 《等一个人咖啡》. 都是九把刀的名作!
我要K书啦!!!!!

Special Service with Kong Hee in Kuching...

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| Sunday 27 November 2011
There was a special service with Rev. Dr. Kong Hee in City Harvest Church earlier tonight. I nearly didn't make it, because someone put me aeroplane leh... LOL joking joking... Don't be mad.. xD
So in the end, I still stepped into my car and attended the service with Francis, he was waiting for me at Tabuan Jaya. Hahaha...

1 week before, when I received the leaflet about the service tonight, my heart was moved because the speaker is Kong Hee, the one that spoke in the awesome Youtube video "God in Ancient China". Here it is if you haven't watched before, you will realize that the Chinese Characters that we were writing and reading all these while are actually the records of history from The Book of Genesis! Glory to the living God! You can sit down for 2 hours for Johnny English Reborn, why can't you spare 1 hour to listen to the Truth?

However, I've read some controversial statements regarding the teachings of City Harvest Church. So I prayed to God, open my eyes and let me see the truth tonight.

The church is at the second floor of a shop lot in Tabuan Desa. They were already in the praise and worship session the moment I stepped into the entrance. Great, energetic music filled the atmosphere and everyone was singing while clapping their hands. That was in my expectation, that it would differ from the normal service that I've attended in my church. Some people may say, rock music is not appropriate for praise and worship. I don't think it is totally correct. As long as we worship God with our heart and in truth, God will accept.
God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth. John 4:24
 神是个灵(或无个字),所以拜他的必须用心灵和诚实拜他。 约翰福音 4:24

However, I understand that why some may say rock music is inappropriate, there is a danger. Someone might be just being "high" with the music and rhythm, and that's is totally not praise and worship. I really did hope that everyone there worshipped with their heart. The praise and worship session lasted for 30 minutes or more. Wow, that was long, tonight was the longest praise and worship session I've ever attended! After the session, Rev. Kong Hee said some words about offering. Right after that, 陈威全 sang some songs from his own album and some were written for others. Question marks were circling around my head, because the songs that he sang didn't have anything to do with God. It sounded like a concert to me. O.O
However, he shared his experience while walking the path as a singer, how he experienced God. He sang the final song, the song that he wrote for God, and it is in his album, 成全.

After the performance, Rev. Kong Hee shared a powerful message, with the verse from John 20:15 [Jesus said to her, "Woman, why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?"...]
He shared the testimonies of Nanz Chong, how a successful entrepreneur stood up again after losing everything overnight with God's help. He also shared how miraculously a brother recovered from a nearly fatal accident when he sought for God. There were more testimonies and then he made the call, to follow Jesus and accept Him as their saviour. I took a peek, glory to God, I see LOTS OF HANDS! May God continue leading them in their life!
Hmmm... Conclusion, to me, it didn't sound like a service to me, it's more like a musical evangelistic rally. However, it is a great night and it opened up my eyes to new things. Glory to God!

Everything was recorded by me. I've uploaded it, the link is at the bottom of this post.
There are two audio files in the ZIP file.
Click here to download >>>> Special Service with Kong Hee.zip (79.77MB)
[the message by Rev. Kong Hee is bilingual.]

P.S. People, Jesus wants to ask you like how he asked Mary Magdalene when he was risen from death, "People, why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?"
"People, why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?"
Are you depressed? Lost? Filled with hatred? Aimless in life?
Wait no more! Download the file and listen to what God wants to show you today!
Jesus loves you!

First Step

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| Saturday 26 November 2011
I told my mum, "I want to go to church tomorrow morning."
My mum replied, "Huh? I thought last Sunday you went with BB?"

This time, there is a difference. I added, "I want to go. It's on my own will."
Finished that sentence, I shifted my sight to the flashing television, waiting for questions from my mum.
Surprisingly, she didn't ask any further. Thank God! I guess she knew that I want to be a Christian. In fact, I'm already a Christian because I have accepted Christ as my life saviour and handed my life to Him.

Hmm... Before telling her that, I've made the decision while driving home from church after BB parade. No matter what, I must take the first step. I know that it is very important, if I were to remain silent, nothing will be done. I prayed that my mum will let me go tomorrow, and God answered my prayer without fail! Hallelujah!

God please strengthen me, I know that through man nothing can be done, but through You, nothing can't be done. Help me, that I will stand still, for You and not only for this Sunday. Give me courage, that I will say the same thing for next Sunday, and for the Sundays ahead. Thank you Lord, in Jesus' glorious name I pray. Amen!
 

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